i’ve been in and out of the sun today, on and off masturbation too. i was tanning outside and jerking inside but then the two met when i discovered tanning oil is also adequate for lubrication. duh. i was getting a bit freaked, kept looking up to see if anyone was watching and then of course a bit of disappointment when no one was. mind you, in the back of my head i kept that little ‘just because you don’t see anyone watching doesn’t mean they’re not there’. it did the trick. if they had been there i would have run inside anyway. i was absolutely consumed with the idea a . first i had seen a double penetration in a video and then my mind wandered. was picking out who i would want to double fuck me. started with the 4 guys who have tried, twice, i’ve tried twice, 4 guys, numbers can be fun. then i was just pairing up this guy and that guy. i’ll go further than that. i wasn’t actually pairing up guys but pairing up cocks. he’s got a nice big cock, whose cock would go nicely with his i wonder. i ended up picking two of the fatter cocks i know. reaching beyond my means i know. should have been thinking of the two smallest. bah. think big! i think the first time i tried 2 @ once IF poppers had been involved it may have worked. there was a moment of searing pain where i have to imagine both of the guys were in ’some fashion’ in there. it always seems to hurt a little the first time i have penetration, it would just make sense that the 2 in there would hurt twice as much. if only i rode it out. ya right, now i’d be out cruising thinking i’d have to find 2 guys instead of just 1 at a time. we’ll see. we’ll see. i ended up focusing in on Tony, one of the first guys where it was a mutual thing and not just being taking advantage of for me. at that point in time i considered myself exclusively a top. HA! also, i think, if i said i was a top then bam i’m a top and your a bottom. Tony wasn’t into bottoming at all. sure i got fingers in there but fingers…c’mon. off the point. Tony had a decided curve do his dick. it came out and then went down. like a j upside down. delicious but whenever he fucked me on my back very very noisy. at that time, being a top, i thought nothing of position. that i recall. now though, being on my back is position number one. so i often revisit Tony in my mind and wonder where he is and what it might be like now. even gone so far as to search him out online but he seems to have dropped off the face of the earth. the long of the story is, he’d be one of the 2. the crook i think gives a certain advantage. inside he’s going to be bending away from the other guy. other guy being hairy brute of a man that got me off the other day with the big fat cock. i know, nasty. these guys in straight videos who dp, they’re rubbing their cocks up against each other. what are they feeling? do they even realize how fucking hot it is for me to watch that and think ‘two straight guys doing it with some chick in between’? a friend tells me he was watching a str8 video recently where the girl was fucking twins and they were both in her and the one told her to shut up when she asked if he could feel his brother’s cock rubbing against his. that girl i want to take out and pick up guys with. focus boy focus, you’re all over the place.